MY SPIRIT DIED
© 2006 Lyrics and music by Emily Sharbani and Bryan Talbot

There’s a black hole where my spirit used to be
A constant thirst in a desert
Like a strung out dope fiend in need of a fix
Trying to find a reason to live
I lay awake in my bed alone
I feel so out of place
This life, is not where I belong
Is there a way to escape

It’s a dark, sad and lonely place
I don’t recognize my own face
I cry for your help, but there’s no one to hear
God throw me a line, pull me from my fear
Comatose, going through the motions
Existing in a life with one emotion
Empty inside
My Spirit Died

There’s a weakness of will, a weakness of body
Where I used to be strong
Worn down by anger, frustration and pain
Can’t fight it any more
Can’t help the feeling my life has been cursed
When do I feel complete
I’ve spent my life being there for everyone
When is someone there for me

How could you let me fall so hard
When you knew you were going to leave
There’s a constant ache, a loss of my soul
Where you used to be
Comatose, going through the motions
Existing in a life with one emotion
Empty inside
My Spirit Died

LEAD

My perfect gift has been torn away
And I feel guilty for cursing my fate
Can’t you see what I’m going through

I had no choice my heart was yours
Now it’s a victim to time
Distance forced by circumstance
And you were ripped from my side

When I’m feeling lonely
It feels like an eternity
I’ll dream of the day you’re with me
And then my heart finds peace

I hear your words as they comfort me
A few years won’t be that long
When there’s a lifetime to share with you
And a love that’s so strong

When I’m feeling empty
Drowned in insecurity
I dream of a day you’re with me
And then my heart finds peace

(LEAD)

When my body’s aching
For you inside of me
I’ll dream of the day you’re with me
And then my heart finds peace

I try not to cry and I scream inside
And I curse my fate
Then I see your smile and I hear your voice
And I know you’re worth the wait

When I’m feeling lonely
Drowned in insecurity
I pray for the day you’re with me
And then my heart finds peace

I see you standing there
Lookin' oh so fine
Got a sweet buzz goin'
Kinda messin' with my mind
Thinkin' nasty thoughts
Of what I wanna do to you
I'm not waitin' till we're home
A dark corner will do

Let me love you on the outside, you can love me on the in
Let me love you on the outside, you can love me from within
Let me love you on the outside, you can love me on the in
Oh baby let me be your horny little bitch

Just give me an excuse
To slip my hand inside your jeans
Run your hand between my thighs
And you'll feel what I mean
One is wet and one is growing
Forcing me to lick my lips
Feel like pushing you down, down
Til your face is by my hips

Let me love you on the outside, you can love me on the in
Let me love you on the outside, you can love me from within
Let me love you on the outside, you can love me on the in
Oh baby let me be your horny little bitch

LEAD (over chorus A - B)

ooo ........ exhibitionistic
hmm .........a little freaky
oow ..........It excites me
(scream)

Let me love you on the outside, you can love me on the in
Let me love you on the outside, you can love me from within
Let me love you on the outside, you can love me on the in
Oh baby let me be your horny little bitch

(back to A)
With my skirt around my waist
Lettin' you do what you will
I don't care who may be lookin'
Let's give them a thrill
Slidin' up against me
Press me up against the wall
Till we reach that breaking point
Till I can't take no more

Let me love you on the outside, you can love me on the in
Let me love you on the outside, you can love me from within
Let me love you on the outside, you can love me on the in
Oh baby let me be your dirty little bitch

Gotta take it slowly, Cause I’m going down again
Lord I feel the pressure, and reality’s kicking in
Emotional destruction, Takes the wind from my sails
Leaves me drifting, and the current never fails

And I dance with insanity
Feel the devil mocking me
Lost touch with reality
Feel the devil mocking me

Chemical solutions, leave me tied up in chains
Temporary illusions, old habits never change
I try to bear temptation, but I’m too weak to fight
I struggle for salvation, but the jaws are closing tight

My mind is like a garden
Trapped inside my head
My thoughts are growing wildly
Set in my flower bed
Come play (dance) in my garden
Just slide in through my ear
But please don’t pick the flowers
They’re what keeps me here

Some thoughts have thorns
Some take awhile to bloom
Some are filled with honey
Some just take up room
Some thoughts bare fruit
Some are really rare
Some are quite exotic
Some need lots of care

CHORUS

Philosophize
Fertilize
God give me inspiration
And my garden grows wild
My garden needs water
My garden needs sun
My mind needs weeding
From the poisonous ones

CHORUS

LEAD

The birds and bees
Pollinate my mind
The flowers get dirty
But my stems are feelin’ fine
My garden needs water
My garden needs sun
My mind needs weeding
From the poisonous ones

I say you say, Everybody’s blown away
They all say we’re crazy inside
I say you say, Everybody’s blown away
They all say there’s something wrong with our minds
I say you say, Everybody’s blown away
We always have fun and we always make em smile
I say you say, Everybody’s blown away
Our funky kind of music leaves em bouncin’ in the aisles

BREAK

We laugh too loud, we dress really weird
They can’t understand the things that they fear
We’re just enjoying life with an exhilarating style
Attracting some attention
We dance in the streets, we sing without care
The critics thumb their nose but they all stop and stare
Secretly wish they had the balls to do the same
Reserved and on guard

I’ll play you play, Everybody’s here to stay
We’re causing a commotion, nobody’s asking why
I’ll play you play, Everybody’s here to stay
Exponential energy really gets us high
I’ll play you play, Everybody’s here to stay
Lost our inhibitions, everybody’s goin’ wild
I’ll play you play, Everybody’s here to stay
Find yourself an instrument and play just like a child